Heh, now i have a gather up all my thinking and thoughts and also feelings. I finally understand that i really not suitable for jing sai dao(board sword)routine and also not suited for any changquan style routines..... I had been thinking that i really lack for flexibility, quickness and able to do gao nandu movements in order to meet up the standard of these routines. But i really like the changquan style as it is extremely beautiful and elegant... But still no poing, i really inclined to the southern style and i think there is no turning back any more.... actually the reason why i had been training in wushu southern styles had many tragedies behind it... but still now i had learnt to treasure it and not letting it go away. What guang yao jiao lian say is correct, i do not have the style to train futher more in the jing sai dao routine....instead guang yao jiao lian is so good that he knows that i do not like nandao....OMG he knows what am i thinking. I told me the facts, i had no choice but to accepted it and improve it futher. i am scared of failing. The reason behing why i wanted to learn jing sai dao cause i will never forget that my wushu idol is still zhao qing jian and it will never change.