P.E.R.F.E.C.T

Today as usual, i had lesson on friday all the way from 8 morning to 4 in the evening. I am so tired...Like i am usual too, i meet alot of sad thing in my life....Today, a relieve teacher called ms janice came in to my class to teach us english language...We were all discussing a passage of comprehension that is called 'procatination'...I felt that the passage was very meaninful that talk and describe the life of a student..Ms janice came to a point that she talk about people who are 'perfectionists'...I did not know the words true meaning till now man!!! No wonder i have a wierd thinking....Perfectionists are people who will stick to the certain thing that they are focusing on, they will not move on to the next thing until the pervious thing they are doing is completely perfect....I found this definition very useful...I truly agree that there are no real perfectionists in the human world as invidual people have their bad points and flaws....I can agree to that people could be perfectionists in a certain area in life...Maybe sports, studies, life skills.... I have no answer, it all depend on how the person see and judge things in life.... Another thing that have caught my eyes is that the moment that ms janice talk about perfectionist, i felt that i am always trying to be one perfectionists in life...But after countless time i have fail many times...I truly asked myself that why in wushu i could not still do well in that area....I have been asking myslef this question all this time while, i could not find an answer.. Even if i have found it, i may now know that the answer is correct or wrong.... I felt so afraid that i might fall in the wrong path of thinking...I am always trying to be a perfectionists in wushu... But it seems that i have failed... It is my job to carry on working on harder and strive as far as i could but still i need to see in what directions that i have gone wrong.... I told myself i will not be a wushu wimp because that i hate to be lousy, in everything i do i will never be the lousest.....I hate failures....I need to train very hard, i got to promise over and over again to let myself to gain more confidence so that i can continue to train for the better...Everytime i am lazy to train for wushu, i will always give myself a pain reminder that how people use to look down on my wushu.. I hope that will really give a hard thug in my heart so that i will not slack so much... I promise that i will be something big when i grow up......