Busy.Busy.Busy

So long, no post coming in liao.....My friends kept asking me to update it but i was too busy with my life and got no time even to write a post... Alot of things happen to me and i felt that it was a burden to me as my n levels drew near... I had to spend my time studying but i also still got go physical training with friends every saturday just to maintain body fitness. I guess i am really un happy as there are really alot of things happening to me these days. Whether may it be family problems, friends problems or daily life problems, i felt that it is damn hard to cope with the increasing amount of problems i had...I could not leave all my problems on its owns , or i will be considered as a looser...Anyway i am leaving soon , out to find and achieve my dreams... i have never think of this will happen to me... I had no choice but to make such an option in my life. I felt that when leaving, i am with nothing....I did not mix well enough with my class mates during my early secondary years despite all my seniors telling me so...I felt so not complete as a person...Now that i am leaving, i just had to close my eyes and to leave quitely...But i really think if i have been given one more chance to go back into time, i will agree to that and grip hold of the opportunity to make the best out of myself....Now that it is one week before n levels, i had to study study study and do nothing....After this period ends, i will be free but still i wanted to get less than 19 points for my n levels so that i could take my o levels when i leave this place.... My parents did ask me not to leave but it seems they will support in whatever i do, i am happy for that....As i treated my n levels like a conflict happening... I wanted to end this conflict once and for all with looking back...Too many things had been happening to me these periods of days in sch....I have no options but to swallow up my pride as i do not want to be at a disadvantage...I got no choice but to put my pride and self esteem at stake...I did that to survive merely.....After all this, i will not live in this way any more... i will live in the fullest in my self....