Such A Let Down.....

Many sad things do happen in my life, and it is sad to say that i have to endure it but i am going to fall soon, very soon....I seems to be very devastated by it but there nothing i can do...I could only see and feel that bad things happen to me....I am sad but there nothing i can do to stop it...There nothing i can share my troubles with...But still i have to complete my o levels...Firstly, i am failing most of my common tests and my teachers asked me what had happened to me...I could only force a smile to them, but deep in my heart, it bleeds!!!!! I hate to admit that i am not doing well enough in my life but sometimes chances just slip away from you when you are unaware...No mood for me these days and i am trying to put my best act to make myself look cheerful and happy in front of my friends....Not only that this is making me sad...Todays is nafa test in sch....Very sad to get such results that is not even a silver award....I did 40 situps, 7 pull ups, 219cm for standing board jump, 10.3 for shuttle run, 44 for sit and reach and 12:10 for 2.4km run....Such lousy results for me... I could not believe it that i am this lousy...I always reckon myself that i will get aleast a gold or silver for nafa in this year but it seems that i failed and i felt discouraged....One more thing that my chinese teacher looked at my attitude of not concentrating in class, she scolded me many times in a row and finally she cried in front of me after scolding me....I felt my heart BLEEDING as i have bring such utter dissapointed to her....I could not believe it that she placed so much hopes on me and yet i am this kind of person.....I wanted to say a SORRY to her buti guess she wont be able to read my blog but in my heart she is a good teacher and it is just that such people like me do not know how to appreciate it much....I am very sad about this too.....Theres nothing i can do but to move on to the next step...One more thing is abt wushu... I only managed to got a top 10 in the inter sch wushu competitons 2011 but that does not mean i am happy wif that, i trained so hard and this is wat i got...I will not blamed anyone but only myslef....This are many more things that make me sad...I cant say it out anymore, it really hurts to type it all out...I do not have a person to hear my troubles and give me moral support...may it be anything, i just need a friend that could hear all my troubles out...

Good Friday

Today is good friday, and i am here staying at home doing my sch stuffs...Now still updating my blog...Tmr gonna be chinese remedial and also going gym with ghim hwee, jing jie , kah kheng and jasper.... I think thats to keep real fit...I am a little tired but today shiok ah, i have mac for lunch and eat to my stomachs content...hahax today quite a lazy day but also i have been thinking alot of things like my o levels, i wanna get over it and pass on to nanyang poly, the poly that i wanted to go wan...hahax i have been thinking that i am so bored that later whether can go out slack in the night and go talk to friends... hahax bbye bye!!!!

Polish Up My Blog

It is 10:51 p.m now and i am updating my blog, hahax my blog is so damn young with only 55 post...but nevermind i will work hard and do more posts... Today went gym with jing jie, ghim hwee and kah kheng...Today wah guang yao jiao lian say that tmr got wan more media corp shooting and will be paying us $50... we all at first wan to go but later we juct come to know that the timing for the shooting is morning to night 11.30 pm so we decided not to go... Ah btw, next monday is my last time going to wushu training before i stepped down.. I wondered who will be the next captain of BGSS wushu team? It beats me too, i have no idea... I will find out more abt this matter next monday. I will like to post some random pic abt me because my blog got very little pics of meself...Sorry if u think that some photos are taken in home clothes like pyjamas and so on...very sui bian but no choice i only have these photos...hahax

Finally, somethings have come to an END!

Todays markes the end of the national inter-school wushu championships 2011, as today i went to see the grand finals. My job today was the music IC for bedok green ji ti quan...Thought it was my first time doing such a thing, i abit nervous and i am afraid i played the music at the wrong time and my frineds cannot complete thier routines....I am kinda happy and sad at the same times for many things....First, we did not achieve very good results this year for this competition. Second, i did not achieve wat i reallt hoping for. third,I can finally put down and sit for my o levels this year. Today , when we reached chung chend school(main), jasper forgot to bring his competition clothes, he damn panicked sia....he left it in sch, then teacher ask our sch OM to send it over to us...Guess wat, Our sch got the last position for the B BOys Group QuanShu Event...It is something sad to hear but i do not have a choice....Hahax anyway, the result of our competition is bad, only 3 of us in BGSS wushu team managed to be in the top 10 in some of the events....I will not pose any competition pics or videos today, i will do it some other day...i will post the full results other time, i just post the wan who got top 10 first...

Jasper Leo Yao An
B Boys Changquan 1st intl- top 8 out of 33 ppl
Heng Jing Jie
B Boys Nanquan 1st intl- top 6 out of 34 ppl
Anthony Toh Han Yang
B Boys Nangun 1st intl- top 8 out of 38 ppl

What About Tmr???

I cant imagine wats like at tmr....cause i will be competing in the b boys nangun event...I dun know what i will be like for tmr...i wanna kinda know...I hope everything go very smoothly for me...i dun wan any regrets...i really hope so...today i better go slp early and just write a short post...I would like to post some of the very pro wushu athelete that catch my eye...i will up load more when i got more pics and vids tmr.....

WHY?

i came to reaccounted on what have a done this few days...I am so shocked and sad to encounter a series of crest fallen sets backs in life...As usual i would post my life on this blog, to make it more private....Today i got a very lousy mark for my nandao B boys division which is 7.70, and my position is 23 out of 33.what makes me damn angry is that there is a missing shout in my routine, and not stable landing during my nandao xuan feng jiao...This has cause me a minus 0.2 marks that became 7.70...I am shocked to get this, but what others choices are made to me??? I cant think of it...My nervous is the only culprit i need to blame on...I hate it, it bring me alot of regrets now!!!! I am sad and it is disheartening to hear such things and some ppl posting on face book that they are sad and wanted to give up, i feel that that is not a need to do this...to my opinion, they just wanted to get more encouragement from thier friends...For me, this is a place my all my anger and hate come together in one piece...I vent my anger in this domain...I do need any encourage from whatever coaches as thier words are all the same, i am sick of it..They say it so comfortably not thinking of my situatuions right now...Of course they have done well in thier lifetime, so they can relax now, but for me now is the time that i should go out and ping with the others. ALL I EVER ASKED IS CHANCES GIVEN TO ME! i really needed it so badly, i regreted alot and it affects my mood...I cant seems to concentrate in any thing i do....My life now is in hte total mess!!!!I would always sleep away all my problems, but now it seems that it is wat too impossible for me to do that now....I must wish myself good luck in my next upcoming nangun event!!!!!! JIAYOU!

My Nervous Waiting

Now it is 8.38am in the morning this post using a sch computer....It has been a few hours to my b boys nandao competion and i am quite looking forward to it....I am very a bit dis motivated by yesterday event where by i cant use the hall to train event before the day where i complete...But nevermind lah, whetheror not i am still ready for the event to come by me....hahax but still i have to complete wif jing jie, i have very little hopes on this event cause i knew that alot of people would win me....haha no very little chance to win , my friends tmr sure to guai lan me wan that i never win leh....I try to keep this post short as nid to do my o level coursework now... i really wish that a very special particular person to wish me gd luck today but seems that i have no luck...haha wish me good luck later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!