WHY?

i came to reaccounted on what have a done this few days...I am so shocked and sad to encounter a series of crest fallen sets backs in life...As usual i would post my life on this blog, to make it more private....Today i got a very lousy mark for my nandao B boys division which is 7.70, and my position is 23 out of 33.what makes me damn angry is that there is a missing shout in my routine, and not stable landing during my nandao xuan feng jiao...This has cause me a minus 0.2 marks that became 7.70...I am shocked to get this, but what others choices are made to me??? I cant think of it...My nervous is the only culprit i need to blame on...I hate it, it bring me alot of regrets now!!!! I am sad and it is disheartening to hear such things and some ppl posting on face book that they are sad and wanted to give up, i feel that that is not a need to do this...to my opinion, they just wanted to get more encouragement from thier friends...For me, this is a place my all my anger and hate come together in one piece...I vent my anger in this domain...I do need any encourage from whatever coaches as thier words are all the same, i am sick of it..They say it so comfortably not thinking of my situatuions right now...Of course they have done well in thier lifetime, so they can relax now, but for me now is the time that i should go out and ping with the others. ALL I EVER ASKED IS CHANCES GIVEN TO ME! i really needed it so badly, i regreted alot and it affects my mood...I cant seems to concentrate in any thing i do....My life now is in hte total mess!!!!I would always sleep away all my problems, but now it seems that it is wat too impossible for me to do that now....I must wish myself good luck in my next upcoming nangun event!!!!!! JIAYOU!