I am Rejected And Dejected

Okay now i am feeling better by now if not y am i still having the mood to write this post. I got rejected by a girl in the first time of my life. I feel so horrible to have such a feeling but as i think over, it do not mean so much to me. I felt that it is just a stepping stone to a new chapter of life. By now i am feeling very funny of being rejected by a girl. What the fuck sia! I am supposed to be sad and by now i should be crying but what am i doing now? i am actually thinking it as a joke, bloody hell, am i a filrt or what? But i can granrantee i am not one of them.... OKay i have been in poly life for aleast one week now. I had liked a girl in my group and i asked for her number so that i could contact her. I actually hint her on that i actually had feeling for her. She told me that she had to come clear with me and she has a boyfriend in NS and that we could only be friends. I dun give a fuck! Just kidding, but not to lie to you, from the first time i saw this msg, i was feeling very pain in my heart and i felt that it is the end of my world. But when i woke up the next day and i began to think, actually it does not even mean much to me at all. It took me less than a day to forget about her.... WTF? i felt bad of myself for havingto forget her so fast. What kind of person i am? Damn! Actually since we cant get in a relationship, we still can be friends! Yah! i love that! I mean whats not meant to be yours, you cant snatch it from god's will. But the main topic is here! I want to avoid embaressment tmr when i see the girl. What the fuck shit, i am scared that she will take me for an fucking idiot! i hope not, life still have to carry on. Let me tell you of my plan tmr, i will talk to her personally and explain that i repect her desicion and i wanted to be good friend with her in the future. Seriously ah, get over with that and i will move on, i will finish what i am supposed to do at rp. I am afraid that tmr she does not wan to start a conversation with me as a friend. I wanted end this whole thing like nothing had just happened! I am really not affected by this, and i am worried i am not mature enough or what to having true love with a girl! By now i still feeling funny! hahahaahhahhahha......