Tryin is good, but because of trying, failure is an option

Just back from a 6.5km jog which took me 28 minutes, damn i was damn lousy, i swear....partly because i so long never jog since from last year and now i suddenly start my jog routine to prepare myself for the 10km run on the 7th of july... Damn i need to prepare my self or else i am gonna fail the run, that would be the last thing i will do.... Apart of that i wanted to talk myself being a coward... Damn i dun even have the courage to do something.... Not to keep a secret that i actually have a soft spot for someone in my class, i am ashamed of that... when i thought of somethjng that wanted to do for her but at the end i did not do it for her... Before this week, i thought to myself that i wanted to celebrate her birthday wif her but at the end i am at home writing this blog post... I do not even have the guts to walk up to her now... I am sure of that... I think this is a one sided love, which pain me whenever i think of it... i hate this kind of feeling, but i had no choice... However if i am to be with her, i am sure to hurt her due to my past experiences and i feel i am not good enough for her... I have hurt ppl before and i do not wnat to aommit the offence.... I wanted to let her go but, eveytime when i see her, i could do that, i just wanted to keep her safe but everytime it is the ppl around her that keep her safe instead of me and that is the reason that why i said that i am a coward....no guts shit ass... For now, i got to concentrate all the major events that come in front of me... I cant let go what i am doing now before i lost everything and that is the point that i will go crazy.... About my sch studies, my grades improve realy really really alot.... Now i just got to hang in there, another few more weeks i will not see her alr.... when it comes to the last day of my year one life, i will definetely tell her... Something very awkward, even my friend has her number only me i dun have her number, this is something very wakward indeed...I like her but i have no guts to tell her or even even go near her....how long more will i have to wait till i go completely crazy???? I have not guts to tell her the truth even thought i know i will be rejected by her, i am very sure of that, that why the post title is trying is good but because of trying failure is an option.

Going Down

Tmr i will be having my OB UT 1, damn and today i am down with fever man... what a bad time to have fever...i still have to be strong for tmr, if not my test will be done poorly... I will not be attending my wushu training tmr, i wan t go back and rest, i just pass them my photos then, i am off... i hope tmr is pan jiao lian and not xue jiao lian...damn i will be skipping so many things in one day, i kindly feel bad, also now i got no mood to do my OB revision... Haiz sian, hope nothing happen to me tmr,everything will go as smooth... Today i am going to turn in early because juding by my eyes i sure slp very soundly wan....I hope tmr i will be changing in my new teams, i just dun want to team up with some ppl, i hate that but i will not mention names...After next month, i want to buy an abercombie & fitch super skinny sweat pants which cost 130 SGD, damn the stuff is hell of a bomb , just because of the brand i have to pay as much... Haiz, also i went to look for hydro whey yesterday... man, it is damn damn expensive, one 3.5 ibs tub cost about 219 bucks but for me, i can buy it at 153 bucks due to membership....hahaha but still expensive, if i were to buy it i the other countries, it will be much much much cheaper....Dammit! okay i will write up till here, seeya!

Devil Week Ahead......:(

tmr i have my science module and wushu training...damn and the next day, all the shit will start coming in, in these case i mean UTs... haiz, for such occasions, even tmr still got training...very tired, the ppl in wushu does not seems to be aware that it is very tiring to tarin before exams... i mean i know it is not only me tired, everybody including the coach is tired but i just wanted a one day off man! i want to prepare for upcoming 2 weeks of UTs... woah that will be very sianzzz, i can confirm that..but i think i just have to endure these 2 weeks of UT 1 & 2 and the next month will be UT 3 & 4.... haiz... damn tmr after my module, i nid to choing my quiz and rj immediatley alr cause i feel that i go home confirm very tired or look through problem solving... okays, i will write up till here!

Long, Lazy Days

damn today i am supposes to send my lappy to the rp it help desk to retreive my password, damn i think i will postpone it to tmr due to 'LAZY' and btw tmr i got wushu training in the morning so i can go straight to the it help desk. hahax i really hope that there will be no problem for my lap top man, i am worried indeed... Btw today need to study for UT, and i understand the topics when i read them carefully, and i could see the relationships in between the previous topic... it is important for me to understand the topic and equations as i would need to apply the comcepts in my exam...For mathematics module, i am all screwed up! FML ! damn i need to learn my maths after friday so today i must finish up my other modules revision.... damn it, i kinda busy....also, i went to topman to shop for clothes, the more i see it, the more i wanted to but it so badly, damn it is like a temptation to me... The clothes and shoes are so nice but however their XS size is still so big for me....cause they are all american-sized... hahahha, if i have they money, i would definetly shop clothes and shoes from there... okay i will write up till here, until next time!

Problems...

damn i forgot my password to my sch website and what now, i cannot even check my sch coming exams and doing revision for maths, damn i think i must make a trip to rp tmr and get me lap top all done and healthy for the upcoming exams... also i just have a new supplement in mind that i want to try and it is the 'HYDRO WHEY' by optimum nutrition... wow, it has wonders of benefits man, but i am not sure wether it really works well for me...from what i see, it has a huge amount of protein per scoop, 30g and it is only one single scoop... and it is the most purest form of protein isolates that ever manufactured in the industry... i heard that the flavours are also eye catching, i think they got super- charged strawberry huge and vanilla velocity and the other flavour i am not sure of.... i went on net to find the reviews of the product and majority say that its worth it.... damn the only main thing that it is 2 expensive to purchase 1lbs of 'hydro whey' and what if it is a 3.5lbs tub of hydro whey? it is gonna put a huge whole in my wallet... haiz... nevermind i can depend more on fresh food , they are just manufactured food, not much of use, just to aid me in my training... okays i will write up till here and besides i going off to do a revision on my science !

Unexpected.....

today i went out to tampines to look for cheap bermudas and in the end i got nothing cause they are 2 expensive...FYI they cost abt 26 to 49 bucks... so my dear! they are a ripped off, and btw money is hard to earned these days with thing increasing prices but the wages of ppl is still the same.... okay this is not the main topic that i want to talk abt... when i was abt to leave tampines, i was waiting for bus 67 at the bus interchange... and out of the blues, i saw eileen , lam yi lin and bryan going in the same bus as me... hahax i did not expect to meet them there... they are am old secondary classmates...btw damn i asked them what poly did they go to... ooohs they went to temasak polytechnic... thats something good to here, while bryan went to singapore polytechnic....It has been very long that i saw them or catch up with them, i think they has not changed alot, they friendly, still the same...i guess i have changed alot and they have not yet discovered, thats not necessary, i guess... okay i just want to be honest with my heart and myself... hey, lam yi lin, if u see this post, then good, it is for you , just nice! when i saw yi lin, i was shocked man, maybe because her eppaerance has changed or what i am not sure, however she is the same as last time, very quiet or maybe she does not know me well enough that she could talk more to me... i asked her alot of questions abt sch life but her answer ar damn short, wth... i am not trying to implying anythng here... she gives me a very fresh feeling ... i hope maybe i could meet up with her another to get to know mpre abt her as i did not do so in my high sch years... i did regret but its 2 late... hahah whatever ! it is reallt unexpected that i will meet her....hahahax......

Fanzi Quan (wushu traditional routine)

hahaha i guess today's wushu training was quite something, my leggs are damn wobbly rite now, i cant even walk up or down the stairs man, serious ah, need to have protein to let me recover... However despite the training being hard, i have finished one of my objective which is 2 finished learning the routine... and I DID IT MAN!!!:) hahax but there are still lots of thing to add in the routine like, movement directions, flavour, not 'used to it' movements and even the momentum of the routine.... Nevermind now i have to make sure that i must know the movements first....I am one step closer to it! Also today i went to talk abt working out with my rp wushu mates... Guess what? such a important basic that i do not even know until! Thats a shame and disgrace, both! I talked about exercises that build the most mass(muscle) and my friend just told me a fact, one would need to have a workout that mainly made up of compund movements and not isolation ones.... Damn i have graetly mistaken that isolation exercises can give the big muscles that i alsways wanted..... until now, i did made some improvements of being more 'toned' but my biceps were never big enough.... wow, i just wasted a large amount of time focusing on isolation exercises.... also i need to take time and learn the proper form of compound exercises like squarts and bend ever rows... however some compund exercises i alr knew how to do it in proper form like pull ups, deadlifts, bench press and push-ups....i guess i need more time to reconstrut my nutrition and my workout regimen... i am relieved i did not sign up for the gym that fast, if not all my money will be wasted... most of the compund exercises i cold do that at home for the time being as i alsogot not much money left for me to spend.... sianz ah today als very tired dun feel like doing anything else but to SLEEP, hahax but i still got science revision to do , dammit this is tiring and my UTs are approaching my way....anyway i will spend more time on revising my science and maths, woohooo! okays, i will write up till here! i will write more ost when i am free enough!

Training Tmr..........!

hey i am in the midst doing my science revision and i felt like writing a blog post man! haiz, so sianz i gotta get to bed early as i needa rise up early tmr for wushu training... Btw see if tmr they got bring the camera, i wan to snap more photos for training... A very shuai wushu post!!! wooohoo, today i just got my hands on OPTIMUM NUTRITION'S PRO COMPLEX WHEY PROTEIN ! hahax this is good stuff man, it has 8 different kinds of protein in it and it is 60g of protein per serving..... very shiok, anyway i haven started using it... I got the 4.6 ibs one, very big tub indeed.... hahax i have problem in my revision which is physics, damn it i never even studied the subject before except in my primary and lower secondary years... i totally forgotten them alll!!! NOOOOOOO! nevermind nothing is impossible when i have internet access at home:) I heard other interest groups are going for a camp tmr! wow, but sad to say that my wushu interest group do not seems to have, sad:( the gd thing is that i have more time to revise for my exams on the following week... (shows stress face) okay i guess i will write up till here, cya ya for the next time...

Strawberry Protein Shake !

hahax i guess i these few days, i am going for wushu and studying in home, thats alll... its gonna be damn bored but nevermind ah, what to do sia? I actually i yesterday thougth it would be good to see all the class mates in ECP but the whole trip was cancelled... I will not talk abt it as i said in the ealier post... But sad sia, i missed the opportunity of meeting up with them....Lalala, let me finish my whole course of antibotics and yeah, i am ready to make protein shakes... Especially strawberry flavour! woooohoooo i think it is goona be damn refreshing and tasty! anyway, next monday i think got training! haiz, something abt rp wushu team, i feel not so close as compared to BGSS bedok green wushu team.... Woah that give me motivation! but nevermind over time i will learn to adapt the changes made to my environment. Hah, i got really no time to workout as much when i am at sch, confirm busy wan:( okay i will stop writing up till here! bye , take it easy!

My Lovey Dovey

Damn today is a dman fucking spoil of mood.... Let me tell you y...Today after finishing from my wushu training session, i just got 5 msg to my phone, oh btw i just wanted to say that today i had a class outing to the east coast park.... Then msg start coming to my phone saying that the class outing suddenly change venue to jurong point and to watch movie... From no where, sice when did the class outing changed without telling me earlier... FTW, my friends start sending me msg saying that they will not be coming... Fuck sia, i alr meet goerge preparing to go to east coast park alr, then it fucking spoil my mood when i hear that there is a change of venue.....Damn FTW, i and george with his friend kai jie went to cause way point to eat pastamania...Hahahhaha something that i wanna say about the conversation is that we talk abt how fuck up our classmates turn out to be and i talked to him about relationships matter... I ask him to rank girls in our class.... I cant help but laughtwhen he do name the some names that i actually name.... Damn, i am damn tired now, bye ....going ah ma hose tmr!