Up and Over....

Okay today i decided to skip chem lesson.....I fucking hate that lesson much and have no motivation to do well in it... However i use the time to some revision at home... I hope UT3 will be a smooth for me....god bless me! Btw today is that day that i am going to get one 'LISTEN TO LIL WAYNE' for real..The shirt that lil wayne wore for the 52th annual grammys.... i am soooo gonna rock that shitttt every day.... The shirt cost me quite alot...I am not planning to buy alot of clothes for the upcoming chinese new year...if it is possible, i am not buying any:) It all comes down to 1week 4 days and my semester will end forever...it is time for me to move on insttead of staying in a fucking shit same place....:) Gonna learn how to live my days with happiness , even if i cant ....at least, i live my life with no regrets:)

Happy Birthday Anthony !

27 th january marks my big day! Yet i did not celebrate with anyone....In this world only me knows that today is my big day... I feel that this semester makes me matures alot ad besides i am a changed person...It would be wierd if someone actually celebrate my birthday wif me.....All these years, i have been in the dark celebrating my birthday with myself....however this year is slightly better, my friends did an advanced birthday celebration for me....i cant express my feelings for that and i do not know what to say in and out of my heart...I always imagine what if ppl would celebrate my actual birthday with me on the actual day.... It will a total different experience! tmr i will have my chemistry exam, damn i feel so unprepared on that module, it is my weakest module , so far :( I will just have to scape through it and i am done for the UTs.....By writing this blog entry for my birthday is a form of celebrating my birthday alone........:( i.....feel......so......alone.................

Fragile Heart

I can conclude that i am very sensitive person after a long research on the interent. That is the reason why i am so vurunable in relationships. Once hurt, forever hurted. I cant take such shit and pretend like nothing happen or do not take it to heart. It will only hurt me sooner or later... I hate myself being lke this, but all i can do it to accept and find ways to adapt to it...

Drop the world

Things are happening too quickly, and ppl around me are now changing to a bad side.... I do not know what to do....I am all alone again and i hate the feeling of that... It all comes down to 2 weeks and 2 days left to finish the semester... Plus this week is going to end soon! Can i start fresh next year? i hope so man cause i knew it is never gonna be easy to strive in there....However for one thing i know, i do not change easily like what other ppl do....I stick to my principles alot...

Too Fast

It is felt down to 3 weeks more to holidays and that is the time where my stress will be released.... Hahax finally, i hope everything will be fine and i have an exam coming next tuesday.... Damn it is damn boring, why dont they make all the exam into one and not split into so many parts.... This sucks:( I have some thoughts in my mind...It has been borthering my for quite a long time....:(

A Rainy Day

Today is just another typical day and i am sitting at home writing this post.... It has been raining non stop since yesterday night... Something is wrong with the weather? The rain did not even stop for a split second.... Guess today is the day to stay at home to do some work revision .... I got a molecular cell biology exam coming up next tuesday..... I wear that is goona be a total boring day man:( I am thinking whether to go Jason Chen concert in singapore at the hard rock cafe! i am not sure whether i have the extra time....Nvm:) Also i need to start working out, caus ei notice i am gaining some fats on my face.... damn , my diet is goona be strict back man.... do more cardio:)

The Pinnacle Of Sucess

Hey there, on the 17 jan. We went to celebrate Alex's birthday and my advanced birthday....It was quite an enjoyable period for me because it has been long since someone actually celebrate it for me....Not even my parents celebrate my birthday for me....:( sad thing rite? Hahaha we went to slack after eating and i am having a good time taking silly, unglam, stupid, gay, whatever u wanna call them photos.... Hahah i never knew that taking of photos can be so fun! Or maybe it is the ppl i am with....hahahax... I received a braclet from them as a birthday gift, it is the thought that counts and i do not care how much the things costs...The ONYX stone braclet they gave me represents strength.... Hahaha it suits me very well.....I guess times passes very fast, i still have 3 more weeks to end this semester.... I am counting down to it...Next saturday, i will make a trip to johor, hope every thing is smooth.....

The odds are against me:(

I still had left about 4 to 5 weeks left of sch before i am promoted to year 2.... In this 5 week, it will be a total struggle for me for complete. So i must really endure the problems coming my way and not give up or my GPA this year will drop.... I am really working on my UT 2, i hope the results will be different from UT 1 and at least my efforts are paid off... My main goal now is to pass this 4 to 5 weeks of sch and i am done, i will have a new environment to move on to....I hope this 5 weeks will go smoothly and i dun have to worry anything....I gotta work harder:)

Clingy Bastards

I hate ppl who are pretty clingy on to something. For example, theses ppl always stick to something and cannot get their eyes off it. I really hate them. I mean, if you are being clingy for a reason thn have nothing to say but i reall ycant stand that ppl who are clingy for a lame reason. I feel that these ppl really have no life, have no sense of pride and dignity. They are not themselves at all, all they want is to get what they want, but in these case i feel digusted. If i am being clingy for a lame reason, i would likey to kill myself.....

Motivation

After seeing my friend wanting to work so hard, my motivatio has finally come back. I am always so competitive and whenever i see my friend wanting to achieve something, i will try to achieve that myself too. It can be hard to me to start the engine but once i find myself on the right track and improving bit by bit, i will nvr stop until i reach the peak.... However starting the engine is hard for me and it has been a problem to me since when i was young....Must strive harder, i know all my other friends are working very hard and here i am slacking and concentrating on those unessary things that distract me from my main track. this is kinda irrating... 6 more weeks to day end, i must endure there and i will reach there soon. Next wk is already UT ..... this week end will be a total studying day!