Gardens By The Bay

yesterday i and my friends or rather my friends and i wen to the garden by the bay at bayfront...When we went there at around 9.45 , it was raining heavily and we did not went up. Instead we went to walk around in the shopping centre in MBS...HOHOHO ! the place was beautiful and cold too. What made me write this post today is we did something in our life that we have never done before and never came across before. It shocks me man:) However it is not a bad thing, it is a good thing... When my friends and i are walking around, Valerie pointed to us as she spotted a young little girl with a hoodie crying. Valerie says that she is lost...I immeiately say that we should help the girl found back thier parents, so at instance i asked Valerie to approach the young girl instead because we boys are rough and that might make the girl afraid... Finally valerie approached the girl and indeed she was lost and this is the time i went up to the girl and comfort her. WE immediately send her to the nearest information counter to announce that there is a girl missing... IF i am not wrong her name is WANG XIN YAN. She is a quiet little gir... HAHA after a while she found back her parents, and i am so gald that she had found back her parents... from there on we carried on our journey... By these time it is still raining heavily and out of nowhere one of my friends suggested that we should head to orchead to shop! Oh my , this is rediculous to me, i came here to go to the garden by the bay but you are asking me to leave now seeing the garden by the bay? NO way, i suggested that we should wait for the rain to stop and go up to the garden.... HOwever my preediction is true enough, the rain stopped but not to the fullest extent...We went up to the garden by the bay....It was so dark there...At first it was nothing special and i thought it was just a flat piece of land with trees and flowers, thats all. but when we venture further in, the garden was beautiful...Specially in the nite, the whole place is awesome... I feel like i am in the world of AVATAR....wow facinating rite? Then my friends and i were cam whoring there with all the fighting, unglam, funny poses we made there. However it was fun, i really enjyed it alot.... WE decided to go MBS sky park in the next 3 weeks!

Me Against All Odds

Finally i have been waiting for this day to come, UT 2 is finally over and i left UT 3 somewhere in late August and september... Today my class have a heated argument with the person called NANDINI, and guess what she cried! I feel both sad for her and at the same time i feel that in a way or another she really deserved what she gets. Okay i feel sad for her is beacause the most of the class ppl is targeting at her with blunt words and high voice. On the other side, She FUCKING deserve it. She has no friends but a whole load of enemies in class.... she got no choice but to turn to me and my friends for sympathy and pity.... Due to her bossy attitude and fucked up attitude, i wont give a damn abt it... So what should i do? I should be the jury aka neutral party...This is alr the 12th week, after this week it will be 13th week, when it reaches the 15th week, we wave hands at each other.... This is fucking stupid, NANDINI cried in class! WTF! CB, i feel that i never show my ANGER, i would be deem as NOTHING.... Why in the fucking world do i scared of my poly classmates? I think if i am not respected, i will fuck them up upside down! However i MUST NOT GO BACK TO MY PAST, IT WILL BE A BIG BIG BIG MISTAKE IF I DO THAT! Dun care what happen i must stay strong, nobody is in my side to give me moral support or lend me a shoulder to lean on.....I have no other options, the odds are against me... I feel so weak, but i cant give up till this point! Who will stay by my side to support me ? who?

CRUSH

Tmr will be maths UT 2, ho ho ho , damn it predict it is goona be hard... Maths has been my enemy since i reached secondary 1, it has been troubling me alot, i hope tmr will be a smooth one, i dun wanna get a E, damn it.... Hahax next week schedule will be damn packed, boy shopping for formal clothes, then go sebawang beach, some more my class wants to go to the harry potter exibition, hahax that is gonna be fun, btw UT 3 wont come so fast.... Instead i really need to put in time to train wushu, i haven been slacking like an idiot ever since i finished my republic run event... Damn, if i never start training now, i never think myself of going into competition again, the medals wont be mine... I think today i will head for a workout later, bench press, dead lift, dips and some shoulder isolation exercise.....MY body is not in good shape this few days, i dun know why? I think it is because of my diet, also i have no time to diet when i am in sch....haha when i am no more studying, i will be going for my dream.... Exceed my limits, within the boundaries!

Me Against The Odds

Time to write a post about my classmates in RP.... Hahax there has been alot of arguments and controversies about among classmates in my class... Why must it be so complicated... The problem is caused where everybody had thier own problems and both party do not wan to change to gain PEACE... I on the other hand living peacefully with my life, yet i have problems in and out of me... I STARTING TO HATE AND DESPISE SOME OF MY CLASS MATES... I CAN BELIEVE THAT I AM DOING THAT! I ANTHONY HAVE NEVER DONE THAT IN MY LIFE....THIS SHOWS HOW MUCH I HATE THIS PARTICULAR CLASSMATES... The first candidate for this category is HR... i wont name her full name due to some rules and issues... This girl is a kind of pest , really... i feel that she should e send to geylang to be a whore there... She is fucking pest, irrating, with a face of an ugly pig... I wannna fight an MMA match with her!!!! URHhhhhh! i hate her, she likes to pretend that she is very close to someone , but in actual fact that she only know the person for only few days and yet she act like she know the person for 1000 years.... This is kinda stupid and retarded... She acts like a big shot in the class, i feel very disgusted by that, i cant tolerated her actions anymore by writing this post. The second girl is yy, same i will not say her full name.... This wan is slightest different... This wan think that she is a BIG FUCK, SHE THINKS THAT HER CB IS SO BIG .... WELL I DUN THINK SO, I THINK I AM BEEN GIVING HER FACE SINCE I HAVE BEEN IN RP.... MY ANGER IS GOING TO EXPLODE SOON, I AM GOING TO STRIKE WITH MY MIGHT SOON ON HER, IF I HAVE TO HURT HER, I DONT MIND IT.... this girl actually talk like a big fuck, act like a big fuck, she thinks that she got good results she pro alr.... Fuck it, i hate it.... This 2 girls add tgt, confirm can hurt ppl wan... they alr hurt ppl in thier team, wtf, they say somethig so hurting that they hurt a team mate until she cries, a sad truth...

A Touching Moment

Today i just witnessed a touching moment when a mother was teaching her very very very cute little son how to walk... She hold on to his hands, i could feel the utmost love for the mother to her son... Look at her son, he is so eager to take one step futher ahead of him... I love the touching moment when the little son is tired, the mother immediately spread her arms like an elegant eagle to carry him in her arms.... This moment touched me deeply, cause i am a kind of different person, i tend to like to be alone, i like the empty air without being disturbed... Perhaps from young up till now, i have been taking parental love and guidance or granted.... I feel that i am not like the other teenager of my age, people at my age tend to go out with families and bond with them.... But look at me, i ahve been independent for most of the things, i tend to regard family bonding as bullshit.... I think i got some kind of mental problem.... Haiz, it is hard to accept the fact, but i am just born this way, i do not want it to happen in this way, but i have no choice.... For me, i have a segeration between my parents and me.... I act, live, and do anything different from them.... People often says that i do not resemble my parents at all.... Today i received a email from RP, asking me to go for conselling, thats another bullshit that is goona waste my time.... But i feel that i need help in clearing all the dark doubts in my mind, they have been troubling me since when i was born in this world...Why am i so different from ppl, where at this time they are all enjoying their family dinner, while i need to sit in the dark and eating my dinner myself.....? Sometimes i feel myself going out of boundaries!

Sunny

Hahax my leg finally recovered from the open wound i had after the republic run alr....Finally i can trained to my fullest potential in my fanzi quan alr... I think i have made my decisions alr, i now trained like siao to my max, then this year IVP i want to compete, i try y best to obtain top 3 medals...Then after that, i decided to quit or not... In order to move on to the next thing that i wanna do.... Tmr will be a tiring day for me.. First of all, tmr i have OB UT 2... damn it is not going to be that starightforward and simple, i swear.... Hope i know all the questions...Btw i have IG tmr also got CCE activity.... This CCE activity is special because it is abt learning taichi.... HAhahahahah, i hope everything will be smooth tmr....

Being Hidden In The Dark Side

i wannted to write this post as i really want to vent my anger on how much i missed a girl who already has a boy friend....i gotta be frank with myself... i really missed her, i would act differently if she does not have a boyfriend and perhaps i do not want to spoil her relationships with her current boyfriend... cause i know how is it like when someone break up relationships with you and your girlfrend... In the end i am always the one to get hurt and have all the scar on my mental mind.... as i am writing the post i missed her so much even i am going to see her tmr in class, but i really wanted to see her now, i hated the fact why am i so slow and retard useless when it comes to relationships..... Tell me why GOD? why did u do this to me when i haveen even comitted anything evil in my life.... I did not do anything that go against my guilt and why i am facing somehthing so painful... I decided that after my first semester finish, i wanted to tell her my feeling towards her, befor ei regret for ot telling her.... I have amny dark past, i wnated to be clear to her... I hope things will change for the better and if not i will be stuck in the dark side forever... I am missing her too much even now, i cant seems to forget her, i tried many times but the more i tried, it failed me and it bring me more pain than ever.. I cant denied the fact how much i liked her.... The reason for me liking her i think it due to her dutiful and high in conscientious qualities in her... I really like her correcting me when i do something silly... That were the times that really enjoyed very much.... Also i kinda think that she is a kind of girl that think very positively....i really liked her very much, even it is my frst time cant forget a girl... Due my dating past experiences, i could forget a girl easily but not this time anymore..... I am in deep shit, as my exams are around the corner and at this point of time i am still thiking abut all this shit..... After the 15 weeks and everything will end , not more suffering more me and the real feelings will be shown out, i already know the answer but yet i still wanted to tell her no matter what.... i have to be brave enough or i will lose out even in the small matters......

Moving On To Another Part Of My Life

i guess i just got to know a truth throughtout the 18 years of my life.... I am very discouraged by it however it is time to move on with my life. I GOT NO PARENTS, ONLY BENEFACTORS THAT PROVIDE ME WITH EDUCATION... NOW THAT IS SOMETHING VERY CRUEL TO ME... however i choose to move on with my life, i want to forget the shit truth and now i am planning to graduate faster and maybe after serving my national service, i will move out of this house... i knew the fact that life in the outside world is not an easy one, but still i want to take on the challenge....Now currently i am year 1 in the polytechnic, in the blink of an eye, i will graduate out very fast...However i am now stuck with the CCE poin ts system becasue i regretted joining wushu that waste the half year of my time.... it is not the matter of having interest or not but rather it is being realistic with my goals.... I have no time to train, like this i have very slim chance of improving plus going home too late... I need to study, i want to go to a univeristy, i dun wan to suffer when i grow up....i am not very please with the coach too.... they always teach the stronger ones and wtf, i hardly have anytime to train in the carpet.... I AM A 'TALK ONLY NO ACTION' KIND OF GUY FOR SAY I AM QUITING WUSHU. I admitted the fact i am that...i am no saw loser.... anyway most of the rp wushu team ppl sucks except for some which is good and does not look down on ppl...But most of the year one ppl there are damn cunning.... One example, i will not say the real name but i would name this person name Peter..... Peter act like one person that he is not interested in wushu but in his heart he wanted to be the captain of the wushu team, that is for sure, i can sense his eagerness to be the top in the team however he will never be.... Thats for sure and peter's friend, who thinks that ppl with backgound in wushu are plai cocky.... That is just fucking bull shit that he can shove it in his own fucking monkey ass.... Beacuse he is just jealous that ppl are on top of him, and despite he is new to wushu.... fuck it, i dun give a damn to him, i am sure that if he happened to have background in wushu for example, he would be 10 times as cocky as compared to other people.... this is just bull shit, i fucking hate him, but anything that does not concern me anymore, i am leaving just concentrating on my life and most mportant thing to do:CCE points... that is the most concern of me rite now...... haiz gotta move on with my life......

One sided

Why is it so hard to let go something completely. I admitted that one sided love is the most hard to experience...I am experiencing it now.... I like a girl and she alr has a bf.... Y? why am i so slow, if i am one step ahead, i would get her by my side right now.... I hate it when i like a girl, her heart is with someone else.... I really hate the feeling... I thought i let go of her, but why the feeling is coming back now? WHY? i cant take it anymore alr, it is very painful, i cant move on futher in my life where i am stuck at a point....Damn my heart, it is being pierced with a sharp blade.... I really like that person very much, if she has no bf in the first place, i think i would act a differnt way around her..... Damn why am i so slow when it comes to relationships??? WHY? WHY? tell me the main reason why? i cant seems to understand what is the hell going on in me that everytime such one sided love happen to me? Its painful, it is hurtful, it is grieving and it is the most fuck up feeling.... I hope things change when my life goes on and on, things get better and i hope that it will be the lat time i would do this.... Damn the feeling is so strong, even when i am typing this post, i am still thinking of her.....when at outside, i did not look at pretty girls like i always do....... not anymore, this can show how much i am drawn to her.... damn i really wanted time to go back to back, so as to give me a chance to make my move..... I like her!

It's time to let go what's ahead of you

Today was a sulky day for me, i had to admitted it, as my face expressions and attitude recently shows it all... I saw a very nice quote on fb by scott herman, what he says 'GETTING CHALLENGED IN LIFE IS INEVITABLE, BUT GETTING DEFEATED IS OPTIONAL' damn i fucking love this.... This is soooo true....how i wish i could be a strong person....Our life is filled with challenges, i cant denied the fact these 'challenges' are hard to overcome sometimes, the more u wanted to get over it, the more it will try to eat u up.... Funny and contradictinng....I have to slap my head and give myself a wake up call, it is so tough for a one-sided love.....it is so tough to give up something that has alr taken part of you.... I d not believe that i cant overcome, i just have to bear another few weeks, then i am done! i will be in a fresh environment, however i still carry my memories with me.... Damn why are these thigs so painful, i dun want to go trought it if i have the chance....Be strong, if there is anything i can do to make it to the top, there is nothing that can stop me from forgeting this kind of one-sided love..... Hah, i feel i am making myself very cheap,,,, WTF! hahax i kinda have that feeling, fuck care everything, i have a 10km run infront of me, i better focus on that before i will fail everything,wake up wake up wake up anthony, you have to stay strong!!!!

For Close Yet So Far

have been doing lots of dieting and training to prepare for the endurance run the following tuesday... i hope everthing will be fine and i dont have to worrying about anything... Damn tmr i still got wushu, i think i go on monday and skip on friday because just to get one last 10 km run to ensure myself in place... I just did a workout, hahax my bench press weight increases... I am really happy happy for that...arrr anyway another round of exam is around the corner, dammmit it lah, so fast i cant even do the things i wanna do... Dumb fuck sia, i never thought that myself will be in this pathethic state...:( this few days i have reading alot about and even asking alot about horscope.... I AM AN AQUARIUS MAN!!!!! OMG my love relationship is sooo complicated even i dun even understand it myself.... I am compatiable with aries but not with cancer.... SAD, what the online descriptions of aquariius was sooooo true.... It is just like my online personality journal.....Like what it state, i take freedom above all things, i hated ppl to take my freedom away from me and perhaps i like a girl who is supportive in what i do... I like her to see the sunny side of things..... i dun see ppl on thier looks, cause i feel that appearanc are just some kind of ass shit thing.... but of course i am not saying i like a person who look like a hideous monster.... but rather i do not place appearance as one of the important factors..... I like individual and unique girls that have thier own thinking, ohhhhhhh, shit i spilled too much of my secrets! Hahax cya next time...