I am at my Ends!

Today is labour day and now i am staying at home writing this post. Later i will be meeting min teck and the rest for a zi char feast.... For these few days i had alot of thoughts in my mind going on. About the girl rejecting me, that thing is alr long gone in my mind , so dont fret about it. Now i wanna talk about my studies grade in rp. Sad to say that my grades are dropping from bad to worst. I feel that my classmates do not even deserve an 'A' grade but she still get an 'A' grade. What is this? I felt that my poly facilitators loved to use 'favouritism' aka biased to grade people on thier work. Which i fucking hate that. My grades have been droppping and my dream to enter a university is one step futher from my reach. From now on, no more playing a fool around, i need to focuss my mnd and give a serious me in every module. It is a crucial time for me, i need to wake up now before it is too late. I hope the facilitators would change thier voew of me.... I want to get an 'A' grade so badly. For the wushu part, i have been to my second training in rp. I feel that ppl there are very friendly and they always welcome you no matter what. Now i am currently learning fanzi quan. It is a very fun routine to learn and i cant wait to master the taolu. I wish to compete IVP 2012 this year and i wanna win something. Btw, i still got a huge problem in JI BEN GONG as my legs could not keep straight. Btw, yesterday i get to know few wushu friends such as jonathan, xiang ting and timonty. Hahax they are all fun ppl to get along with. I wish that i could do more streching at home but i cant now. Beacause my leg is still pain. So far in my years os wushu, i do not have any long terms injury. I guess i am lucky enough to have say that. JUst beacuse i so long never touch wushu after i graduated from BGSS, i need to gain back the mometum real fast and catch up with the others. Okay i will stop writing here, hope both my studies and wushu will go smooth... Whatever the obstacles , i still have to face it no matter what. So that these could at least lighten my load and yeah! i could attend other problems in my life. Cya! stay strong, fighting!

I am Rejected And Dejected

Okay now i am feeling better by now if not y am i still having the mood to write this post. I got rejected by a girl in the first time of my life. I feel so horrible to have such a feeling but as i think over, it do not mean so much to me. I felt that it is just a stepping stone to a new chapter of life. By now i am feeling very funny of being rejected by a girl. What the fuck sia! I am supposed to be sad and by now i should be crying but what am i doing now? i am actually thinking it as a joke, bloody hell, am i a filrt or what? But i can granrantee i am not one of them.... OKay i have been in poly life for aleast one week now. I had liked a girl in my group and i asked for her number so that i could contact her. I actually hint her on that i actually had feeling for her. She told me that she had to come clear with me and she has a boyfriend in NS and that we could only be friends. I dun give a fuck! Just kidding, but not to lie to you, from the first time i saw this msg, i was feeling very pain in my heart and i felt that it is the end of my world. But when i woke up the next day and i began to think, actually it does not even mean much to me at all. It took me less than a day to forget about her.... WTF? i felt bad of myself for havingto forget her so fast. What kind of person i am? Damn! Actually since we cant get in a relationship, we still can be friends! Yah! i love that! I mean whats not meant to be yours, you cant snatch it from god's will. But the main topic is here! I want to avoid embaressment tmr when i see the girl. What the fuck shit, i am scared that she will take me for an fucking idiot! i hope not, life still have to carry on. Let me tell you of my plan tmr, i will talk to her personally and explain that i repect her desicion and i wanted to be good friend with her in the future. Seriously ah, get over with that and i will move on, i will finish what i am supposed to do at rp. I am afraid that tmr she does not wan to start a conversation with me as a friend. I wanted end this whole thing like nothing had just happened! I am really not affected by this, and i am worried i am not mature enough or what to having true love with a girl! By now i still feeling funny! hahahaahhahhahha......

Things are never the same for what i used to think at home. I used to think in my dreams that it is very simple to achieve something but when i meet smething in real life that it is hard for me to say it out. Let me tell u something of myself, i get really shywhen there are alot of ppl around me, i do not know why of a reason but i just cant put that away. Pls help me! i really wanted to tell someone of my feelings to her, but i am sure that i am raelly shy of telling it to her...this morning in the bus , i really thought of something that i wwnat to tell her, but when i really see her in person, i could not tell her anything, not even to stare in her eyes, i really hope that she would say me a question or 2.

Am i really out of my mind, i should be focusing on my dreams and goals, i got some unfinished buisiness here, ans i really want to finish it fast...i cant think of what to happen next but what i can think of now is that i am in a shy mode now.

Inside The Heart Of Rp

guess what? i am inside rp right now writing this post... All my team mates are out for lunch i guess, hmm i am waiting for my team mates to come, damn it, what took them so long to come?

I knew that i had to talk about poly life when i wrote this post, sounds very rubbish right? Ireally find poly life to be very interesting, but counted to be very tired as of to waking up in the morning at 5.30am, dam this is damn tiring for me. Whats the real thing? It is when the wushu IG starts, it will be even more taxing for me, i swear that i will defeat MH , no matter what, i need to get my place in the republic poly wushu team, i am very corncerned that some one that trained from MH who is studying in rp, like this i will be pulled down a standard...

I became more opened when i reached the poly life, i felt that i am more sociable than ever, it still bring back time when i was in my high school times, i find it even hard to talk to a girl maybe due to shyness, i am not really sure of it... I need to focus on my goals, i really cant fail, if not i will be at the losing end, i cant take my anger off MH, I will defeat them, but i am scared that i will fall, in the end that i am the wan that lost, i had nobody to rely on . I really hope that everything would be fine!

The Start Of Poly

tmr will be the day for the day 1 of my poly course and it is an official date... Damn, i got 5 modules for semester 1 and i cant wait to get into wushu IG, i want it fast, i want to train fast, i want to beat MH.... I guess i gotta start training harder and need to strech from now on.... Tmr will be the strat of my class at E26R, damn my class is a real dumb fuck ass shit, cause most of the ppl there only talk to thier own friends or the ppl they know, leaving me with like alone , got la i made freinds ah but u know, my class like not so bonded like i am in orientation team 2 or 3, i dun give it a fuck care abt it...I really hope that tmr the day itself will be smooth ah, i hope i understand all the things that the faci telling us.... I want to train harder, taking my leaning to a new level, but first i pray that i shoulfd meet no pros in the year 1 of wushu fresh man, if not competition will be very rough and tough for me, specially if the coach do not wan or have no interest to teach or what fuck, i dun know!

Lacking Off

These few days, i had very little time to work out man, and my nutritions is getter from bad to worse due to the hectic and busy life i had... I had no proper meals and even worse no workouts, but yesterday i did a triceps workout.... I need to think of something or should i say solutions in order to solve this problem.... Tmr is the last day of orientation and oooooh, damn it start sch so fast, i wish i had just one more week of holiday.... I really hope that i will get wushu IG real damn fast and sweet and i wanted to train as fast as possible.... But for my studies, come on how hard can bio medical be??? Actually it is not gonna be that easy, ahahah... okay i have started to train to sleep early and wake up early, no more becoming a nite owl! Okay thats for now, Bye!

I'm Awesome!

Hi there this is anthony here, i just came back from my orientation camp fews days ago, one word to describe it: Awesome!!!! however it is damn tired as it is consecutive days of cheering , playing and even making friends... Damn, i really miss the camp very much, and next monday is still orientation but it is more of a adminstrative stuffs like eating lunch with the mentors and all that kind of fucking bull shit stuff... Hahax i wonder what my course mates look like!!! i hope dun give me some kind of ugly china girls , so damn nonono! Btw i hope wushu interest group a should send me the invitation fast so that i can train and start working to my goals and dreams... Next monday need to bring lap top and damn it i hate to carry something heavy in my hands other than weight lifting... Hahax my first module is science,i found myself bonding with many people and good i am making signficant progress... Damn i really starting to feel the heat of poly life, the energy surges in me, i cant wait to see my mentors.... Something that have been troubling me is wushu, why they haven send me msg yet??????

Tuesday

Next tuesday i will going for my orientation camp in republic poly, damn i am damn nervous... Damn i hate to take bus 168 and 169, it roughly takes 1hrs 20 mins for me to reach rp, damn fuck sia, i need to wake up so early in the morning and what is the difference from my previous secondary life..... But i had no choice, my orientation period will be next week... Next friday is my junors competing in the group quanshu event, and i am going to toa payoh sports to support them... Tmr is the first day for ppl in singapore poly but mine is next tueday.... My friend went to shandong so i will be going the camp by myself , hope to make new friends... JUst now i have done packing my camps stuffs but there are things still to be packed tmr.... Hooo!! today is my last day of nite life, where i can stay up late nite to do stuffs, but after today i needa slp early.....

To be frank, i cant wait to wushu interest group in rp... I wanna put in my efforts inthere to achieve my targets... Damn i had alr planned everything alr, all i need is to carry out the plan... Bye until next time, btw i am bench press 35kg alr plus the bar i think will be 36kg....

It Is Either A Go Hard Or Go Home!

I had been to the wushu comp inter s sch yesterday... I had recently starting to hate martial house from a little to alot to much... Martial house is my former wushu academy that i trained in my sch days.... The reasons why i hate them is not becauseof my coachs that taught but the head coach and some other coach and it is starting to piss me off....My friend or should i say junior went to complete 4 duan boardsword yesterday and i felt that he should get a score of at least 8.10 and the judges give him 8.05, what the hell in the world is that.... May i could say that i am not a qualified and it is wrong for me to say that, even the current coach teaching my sch now alo say that he shoyuld get at least a score of 8.10 and above... Most of the judges there are from myformer wushu training centre... I should name them MH here then.... I saw a coach from MH which taught me last time, i dunno he is trying to avoid us or he super hate us.... Damn that wan reallt pissed me off that much... i hate that, MH seems to hate our sch that much, even last year me and my friends went to their training centre to train for the upcoming competition, they dun give a fuck abt us, i think maybe we too lousy or maybe we are nbot really close to them... I really hate that, seriously... But sincerly, i think those coaches that taught my sch are really good...

Damn i would wan to continue wushu when i advance to rp... I will be trainig traditional routines and completing with other poly and universites... My main target in NYP because they are taught by MH... NYP is strong in wushu but i will prove that i am the wan winning, i am no more the anthony they used to know....

I know that the journey will be a rough and tough wan but i will still wan to do it, in order to taste the feel of winning.... I will not stop until i get back my share! Wait for me ! MH, i will be back to get you all!

May you would say that i am talking big and boasting, waste time taking is a total uneffective, action speak louder than words! Yeah? Fuck it! I will be back to get You all!

Cheering!

Tmr i will be following my juniors to the wushu inter sch comp 2012 and i will be cheering them on... hahax tmr will only be 2 indidual events, one is b boys nan gun and the other i not sure... Hhahaax i fvourite event nan gun, which i completed during my sch days... Hahax i hope tmr will be a fun day and i will want to follow them until their ji ti quan is over... Bye for now!

Inter School Wushu Champioships 2012

Today i went to inter sch wushu championships 2012 along with best friends de xun and jing jie... Hahahx today was damn exciting as i went to the competition as an alumni member.... Woah first day of the competition alr got so many ppl compete.... Today competitors are jing guang chun kee for b boys nanquan, sean and ming wang for b boys changquan plus narzhan or c boys 5 duan nan quan..... Hahax the results are not really fantastic but i am really proud of them as they put up a very good fighting sprit, even tafter the competition, we were all happily chatting in the bus, or should i say mini bus... I went to the competition only as i wanted to continue wushu in my poly years and i really wanted to beat some ppl in terms of wushu.... I cant stand the cocky attitude of them and t is really getting on my nerves.... As usual the winner of b boys nan quan is bo wen.... i think he too powerful alr ....hahahax on the thursday i will be following my sch again, hahax io hoipe more alumni members will come... Good luck!

A New Term Gonna Start Soon!

Today is april fools day and it falls on a weekend! Another 9 more days , my rp orientation camp is gonna start soon... I am feeling abit kind of nervous and i dun know what is going to happen there! Today on bus, i experience a situation which i cant say that whether it is good or bad, but however it just makes me wanna say it out....When on the bus , a group of malay boys boarded the bus 69 and they started talking very loudly, and out of sudden one of them talked abt things on face book and they all memtioned naomi neo... Damn i guess that Naomi Neo is super famous and i am not sure whether these boys are her fans or hater, they are saying her name and laughing .,like nobodys buisiness.... Damn Naomi Neo, You are damn famous..... I got to know Naom,i Neo as ppl love to like her post or share her status or whatever what shit...Fuck it, her appearance is very good, wow but why everybody who is jealous of her, tries to post mean comments... I mean if you are jealous of some one, try to work harder in order to be better or in this case think positive and not post mean comment abt ppl...Haiz, these ppl ah, why wan like that!