New Haircut

Okay i just found a EVANSTYLE hair cut for men, and it is my ideal haircut... Okay i am going to get it cut by tommorrow and i hope that my head can support that kind of hair style.... I am so excited about the start of poly and i am dieing to start my campus life....Damn, i had to but some new clothes for poly , if not later i got little clothes to wear about.... Hair cut tmr Bye!!!!

The Perfectionist

Now is already 1.20 am i the morning and here i am writing this post.... Today i did not do any workout, except for some arm curls and 100 push ups! Hahax, i felt that i have to reconstruct my workout program and ever since my o levels period, i start to lose keeping track of what i eat and even what i workout out... I failed to keep track of what i have been doing so far... All these had just gone to waste.... But first, i need to have a very very very good nutrition plan, and that serves as the biggest obstacle for me right now, i have no idea what to add in my diet plan, and most importantly, i do not have the money to but the stuff that i wanted... Poor guy i am , i such a poor state! i guess the reason why i have very minimal muscle growth is that i had very inconsistent workouts, my diet sucks, my rest time is way too insuffiecient, and i overtrain my self... Not to worry about my form in the workout, i made sure that my form is flawless even when i lift heavy without a spotter..... Actually my strenght increased through the years and now i could do more that 40 push ups in a min.... i can curl up to 25kg and can bench press 32kg..... Hahah but no one gives a fuck about that man!

I have been watching dream high 2 recently! I really cant denied that the show was fanastic and vey interesting... something keep me very inferior is that all the actresses or actor are very tall vene at the same age as me, damn why i feel so inferior, because i am so short, fuck the world man, why do you have to put me in such a position where i had no self confidence in facing ppl, worrying that i will fail to be the person that i wanna be in life.... Why, putting me in such a state that even i hate myself!!!!! Damn i must admit that i am a perfectionist, my the day that i was borned, i can gurantee my perfectionist mindset never leave me for a seconds.... In whatever i do, i will always shoot for the highest point, the peak.... Even when playing games, i will always asked what the most powerful thing or characterr in the game, it makes me wanna be the most strongest, but that is always just day dreaming for me....

I will see through it as it goes and i knew that i need to stay strong no matter what!

Waking Up Love (2011)

Woah, this drama is fantastic !!! very good to watch, it has 40 episodes and the drama is the remake of taiwanese drama princess turn frog... However this is a mainland drama and the casts are roy chiu, tiffany tang yan, james wen, jones xu and qi wei.... A very good and touching drama to watch and i am watching it the second time already..... I love the character of liu xiao bei and xiang tian qi in the show, they make a very very good couple together.... Also this drama has alot of JJ lin's song, i also dun know why...

It's Time For Your Entertainment!

Hahax i have just hit achest workout and a while more i am gonna eat a post workout out meal...wait let me write a post first.... I wated finished a drama few days ago and i find it very interesting.... The title of the drama is ai qing shui xing le and it is a mainland drama.... Actually i dun really like things from mainland but, the drama is sooo nice, it had many of my favourite mainland actor and actress such as tiffany tang yan.... Aowwww, she is so cute and lovable in the drama and she make a heavenly match with roy chiu in the drama... They seems like a perfect couple:) Btw i am going to catch another mainland drama soon, it is called xuan yuan jian and the main cast are huge and tiffany tang yan... It is a waste that it did not start now, if not i will be downloading it rite now... It starts on 3 July 2012, damn by that time my poly alr starts, and i wonder i will have the time to watch drama??? The show is gonna be evry exciting and i really cant wait to watch it....Apart of that, maybe i should catch a upcoming korean drama too, its called love rain , casted by yoona and jang guen suk... It will be really exiting tooo, and it will be aired somewhere in May 2012.... In the mean time i should watch dream high 2!!!!
Really, tiffany tang yan is such a good actress and i really enjoy watching her show...

Mindset Failure

Mind set and failure are 2 different things but they are very related to ecah other in some ways.... Take cutting and bulking as an example. For cutting, u need to eat less food as possible as to get the defination and lose weight and for bulking it is the oppsosite... It requires to put on muscle mass not fat mass and the person has to go through a high calories diet.... Now the mindset comes into play, when in the cutting period, your mindset is to loss weight by eating less and working out more.... The period usually takes about 3-4months and your mindset is like already fixed and after the cutting period , u wanna bulk up and you had to eat more.... This is a big transition from one end to the another....In addition, your body got to adapt the changes and withstand the load and pressure... Most importantly, your mindset gotta make a change.... However,you think that by eating alot will make you fat and destroy your dream body but in actual fact that you had to eat in order to bulk up....this is one big issue and another problem is that over training.... This is something that is troubling me from the first day i started weight training... I could not overcome it, i went on the newspaper, internet , books t find solution to remedy it but to no avail.....

Mindset is very important for those who really wnat to suceed and move on... However people who have full control of thier mindset are the want who suceed in thier lives and ppl who are trying to conquer over thier mindset are ppl like me...
am trying out alot of new things in order to beteter expose myself to more thigns..... However my mindset, its pulling me down....

Today i had dropped down to failure and i could not even do a chest workout, due to overtraining... Its is very sad thing... What to do??????

Am I Even Progressing?

After been weight lifting for at least 1.5 years, i started when i was 15 years of age, and i always asked myself this question that am i even progressing? Am i woking towards my dream body or am i still at the same old point.....? Okay let me adress to this question now. The answer is that i am still in the same point,not improving anywhere, is it because i had alreasy hit my limites already? That should not be the case ... However i got a huge huge increase in strenght and muscle endurance, that is the only thing i got, i could now do 15 pull ups in 1 set, 40 pushups in less than 1 min, 20kg arm curl, 32kg bench press and many more... However i wanted to make some improvements in the shape of my body, putting too much stress is not too good, i ama ware of that but the fact is i am trying very hard to eat as much as i could, but still haven gain any weight yet! why why why, why is this happening to me??? I am not simply eating enough, damn it, how in the wold am i goig to increase my appetite??? I felt that i do not have enought imformation on what really is a bulkinh diet yet, i am skinny and light.... Damn it, i gotta have more workout inspiration, if not i will drop to failure... Soe one with fitness knowledge, PLs plsplspls pls helpme out!!!

Just Another Day

It has been a day today spending my day playing psp, espeially old sch games. Damn it i shoulf have done something more productive and besides the march holidays for secondary sch is coming.... I wanted to take my training to a new level where i can train with heavier weights and most importantly have a spotter to assist me.... Yesterday i went up on the internet and made a research on how much ppl can arm curl / biceps curl! PPl say they used 10kgs and some even said they used 40kg, from there i could now know where i stand... Okay heres mine, for my biceps curls i used 20 kg and for bench press i used 31kg... Damn mine is quite little, i m weak.... I need to train stronger... I made improvements in my pushups rep count, now i could do 40 pushups in less than 1 min, damn i just gotta trai harder and besides i am trying to do a planche push up.... later i am going to hit another chest workout!

I wonder if where all my classmates are in which poly ??? After not meeting them in a period of time, wonder how are they doing. Hah! just a quick post i am lazy to write futher...

Yo I M Back

I will be writing more post now as i will spet most of my time not going out...Now i am currently waiting for 17 april thats means the start of my school poly course... hearing from some of my poly friends, they say to start sch at 8.30 am, and that means i need to wake up as i early in the morning like secondary life. damn it, i hate that to wake up very early in the morning is like asking me to climb mount everest... Futhermore i wanted to join a cca when i reached poly and that means that i will be back very late and hd to be ready in the early morning... For the cca part, i wanted to join WUSHU , as i always liked mixed martial arts, but tooooo bad there is no mma in epublic poly... Damn i cant wait to start poly man.

Aside from poly stuff, i watched a fantastic movie which i liked very much, it is called ACT OF Valor, damn it , the movie is soooooo gooooood... First of all the movie is delicated to the ppl who die for their own country in war... I felt very touched at the end of the movie, and i felt inspired and felt a sense of great respect for ppl who died for their country... Apart from that, the movie is like counterstrike, very nice , the guns sounds very clear... I really like it and it is one of the few war movies that i ever like...

I am going to hit a chest workout later on and a biceps workout at nite, these few days i am always hungry alot....i ate really lots after my workout and i felt hungry not long ago. Does this got to do with my metabolism rate or wat!!!! i ate a cheat meal yesterday and today i got to do alot of catching up!!!! btw it is kinda hard to bulk up and losing weight is simple for me... taoday i will be benching 30kg, i will not go so heavy today!

Sad Life, low confidence

It has been a long time since i have wrote a post; okay first of all, Yo! long time no see man! hahax i have went throught alot in my life and i wanted to write it all down....Oh by the way i have been posted to republic poly to study biomedical science course man! I had no choice but to travel so far. I went on to complete my enrollment process and bought a lap top which i am using now to write this post... Hahax it cost me a huge sum of money just to purchase this lap top....

I have been thinking in my mind, FUCK THE WORLD man, how in the hell that i am so short when i am alr 18 yeard of age , damn i am thinking that everytime, everyday solutions to make myself grow taller and taller, my current height is 158cm now, damn fuck the world and i am 51 kg due to weight lifting, i am trying my best to pack on as much muscles as i could... BTw from my previous post i said i was bench pressing 22.5 kg or something, now i am bench pressing 32kg right now but i am dead worreid that the increasing weight of bench pressing will stunt my growth and make me look shorter and shorter...damn i am so afraid of that, now i would think twice abt bench pressing. I am trying to do as many streching exercises everday from now, i really need to grow tall damn it really affects my confidence and self esteem in the public at how i interacts with the others. I have been doing alot of chest training these few days and i am hitting them real hard and i hit my triceps too... I could see developments in them... which i am happy, but on the other hand, i am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so short short short short shot short man man man !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am angry, sad, dejected,and all the other sad feelings...

Pls god! if it would be my last wish in the wholre wide world, let me grow taller pls... I really really really really wanted to grow taller.Tmr going to watch a movie with freinds , damn i hate going out, i am really afraid of ppl saying something nasty abt my height...

Anthony Fighting!!!!!