Invinsible

It has been a while since i have the mood to write a post in this blog post but i will keep this blog personal. It has been long since my last post. In the end , i am still single. I chose to back out in the relationships that i chose to be in. This is top avoid the harm brought to me. Every days passes and i feel certainly stronger as i learn and experiences new things. I feel that in the past i am childish and immature but now i will not say that i have learn everything but i assume i have the right to say that I AM CERTAINLY MORE MATURE AT THIS POINT OF TIME. Even in relationships, i do not wish to go back to the worst memories. I have learn alot. There is one thing that makes me very sad. Throughtout all this 18 years of my life, i have never actually beaten myself before. PPL always say the biggest oppentent in your life is YOU yourself. However, i haven never been able to fully control my desire, principles and my morale. I feel that i cant. I still belong to the nature where my emotions are being controlled my nature. I have alot of thing to say to myself and to reflect on. I do not wish to carry a life where there is no point or objective. I hope things would go on smoothly for me as i could sense that there is a great trouble coming before my eyes. I hope my next relationship will be the last and final.... I feel very sick and tired of this ...2013 is coming and i still want to stay in 2012. 2012 has been a fun year for me as i met ppl with different attitudes, working space and personalities. It can be great if i could have been a better person.