Please dont let me fall again

I felt that today was an dead end for me. I felt very tired of myself and i really think that no one in this whole wide world understand me at all.....Only me myself know myself best...I am at the lost in direction right now....I dun know what to do and what am i thinking after all the set back in life that i am very afraid to fail... I came to think that even my family members do not trust me at all. I always hated people to treat me like a joke....I knew that trying my best is a good thing but after all that failing becomes an option to me which i hated tooo much.....I had no one in this world to share this common goal with me....Everyone i met it seems so different compared to me.... I felt very sad , tired and devastated by this.. I really dun know when is the time that i will come back to my owns senses and cast away all set backs in life and suceed as a good person in life......I got nothing in life to boast about... people friends and other team mates have but i do not have..... Its my first time seeing my mother cry so hard when i told her about my situation... I did not mean to make her cry but i have no chhoice but to tell.. I felt that some things it is better to keep that in oneself better than to tell other people.... I am very sad but i still have to keep on my life and try to achieve my goals the other rest wait until i achieve my goals then talk and think about it.